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Thursday, October 31, 2013
Unviable
Originally Posted October 20, 2013
That's what its called. Mike searched and searched the ultra sound, hoping they were wrong. He asked and asked for something, anything, good news, that might help us sleep better at night.
There was none to be found. My doctor just shook his head and said he didn't want to give him false hope.
The severe pain started the next morning and continued up until last night. Feeling faint from 4 days of blood loss, feeling sick from 6 days of tears, feeling mixed about all the other emotions: anger, frustration, hurt, fear, ANGER, depression..
I'm just lost right now...I don't want to talk to anyone but my husband and, only for a few minutes. I look into his eyes and wonder what the baby was going to look like and the tears start again...my heart is broken...
Mike loves seeing the "big picture"....so here goes, I will try...When we get the okay, we will start trying again...I am looking into changing jobs and I will only allow good, positive people into my life...Never again will I allow someone to get to me so bad that I go into screaming fits and stress out like I did...True, I didn't know I was pregnant, but if only.. I will definitely opt out of the intravaginal ultra sound next time around...and as for $ which seems to be all that some people care about, I would sell everything I own to have our baby back!!!
My heart is completely shattered over this loss..
That's what its called. Mike searched and searched the ultra sound, hoping they were wrong. He asked and asked for something, anything, good news, that might help us sleep better at night.
There was none to be found. My doctor just shook his head and said he didn't want to give him false hope.
The severe pain started the next morning and continued up until last night. Feeling faint from 4 days of blood loss, feeling sick from 6 days of tears, feeling mixed about all the other emotions: anger, frustration, hurt, fear, ANGER, depression..
I'm just lost right now...I don't want to talk to anyone but my husband and, only for a few minutes. I look into his eyes and wonder what the baby was going to look like and the tears start again...my heart is broken...
Mike loves seeing the "big picture"....so here goes, I will try...When we get the okay, we will start trying again...I am looking into changing jobs and I will only allow good, positive people into my life...Never again will I allow someone to get to me so bad that I go into screaming fits and stress out like I did...True, I didn't know I was pregnant, but if only.. I will definitely opt out of the intravaginal ultra sound next time around...and as for $ which seems to be all that some people care about, I would sell everything I own to have our baby back!!!
My heart is completely shattered over this loss..
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